Over the last couple of weeks we have had lots of difficult conversations and we are both still pretty rubbish at them. The small-talk-question-of-the-moment is definitely ‘How was your Christmas?’ with a close runner up of ‘So, did you have a nice break?’ and I’m certain we are not the only people out there struggling… Continue reading Reactions

I love Christmas. However it’s no secret that the post-Christmas-blues can feel just as real as the pre-Christmas-tingles. The next time I wash my Christmas jumper will be the last time for another year. The cold and the dark, instead of being a precursor to the festivities ahead, are now merely a symptom of being… Continue reading Fears

A few days ago I found out the baby I had been secretly carrying for the last three months is going to die. Lying on the sonographer’s table my heart seemed to break in slow motion as the realisation of what was happening around me slowly sunk in: Moving around in a pixelated world of… Continue reading Our baby